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Listen August 12, 2007 12mm
Pili CS Phil.

I feel am i dont want to talk nor to write but listen to the words i could not say and write.
This was the time when my mother struggled to delivered me in mother Seton Hospital by Cerian delivery 40 years ago. So the best thing i could do is to express my thanks to my mother for she let me live here on earth and experienced the pained. This is also the day that i let everybody know that am who I am that other always have a wrong judgement.

Thank you is my word that I will always says because I surpassed those days that almost I give up when i felt nobody to hold on, because God is out of my self.

He let me feel alone to struggle in the dark and i learned to appreciate the saddest time.
For me to listen the unspoken words and to read the events of time.

I Could not remember anymore those things put me in trouble that fell me down.
All I can feel today is satisfaction. But it is hard to say and put in writings.
God guided me to the place where should I be.
My life now is complete and contented.
I can'T feel the pain that made me sad and unknown before.
I feel I am growing, I feel am out of my old shell, I feel am on top of the mountain with God.

THANK YOU is my word that I want to say for you to listen.
Thank you for the pain it helped me to be human.
Thank you for the trouble it led me to be in order.
Thank you because I was wrong and I learned to be patient.

So listen to my prayer because nobody wants to listen to me
only God placed me to listen.

Thank you for giving me life in 40 years.
I felt I loved.
Thank you for the people I met
because some of them put me in vain
then I learned to be human.
Thank you for the pain
because I understand how to be human.
Thank fpr the shamed when I was nothing to give
because I learned how to forgive
I felt am human.
Thank you for the time that I was hurt and insulted
because I learned to be calm and I felt am human.
Thank you for the time i can'T do anything,
I learned to cry and I felt relaxed.
I feel am human.
Thank you the rejection of my mother and other people
because I feel am lucky and I found my self am human.
Thank for the consecquence of being late,
because I learned to be concious of prayer time,
these things tested me to be human.
Thank you my kids that made me glowing
because I feel being a mother.
Thank you for oj
he molded me to be a woman
and treasured as the priceless thing he acquired,
because I learned how to love.
Thank you for my life
am trying to live in your well lord
trying not to commit sin,
because I feel am your child.
Thank you for the changed to make myself progressing,
because I feel am SUCCEEDING.
Thank you for your time
to listen.


Cynthia Castro-Baldoza